Over time... I wondered if the present would become the past. If all the good deeds would be forgotten. If I would turn evil. This fear haunted me. I was afraid that I would lose my good self.
When I look back, I seemed to have done a lot of good. I wondered if others thought that I did good. And in the old times, I was praised when I did good.
(Random Thought: "Anyone will enjoy the end result, even the products, but a true friend will help you with the process, too, not just the end.")
Thus, I want to just... learn something. As I have less and less to do. As I have less and less opportunities to show my true self. As I need to accept that I am fading into the background as an NPC, down from a protagonist.
I want to know.
Am I the same person I was years ago?
If yes, that means that I've done good. And I can rest in peace.