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i just made a phone-energy plan-marketer from india hang up.. told him id answer a question if he answered one.. then mentioned the struggles in india (where he was from) and how hard it was economically since allot of people lost there jobs.. i kept talking about how i was thinking i could do more and he said have a nice day and hung up.. but then i got thinking

maybe he didnt like me.. maybe he felt shame.. or maybe it was appreciation.. empathy? .. allotted scamming time? maybe he simply found it too hard to scam me.

idk.. but i wonder looking at the world if money is really the perfect system.. and what drives people to kill for money or prostitute.. when a bowl of rice costs very little

then i remember that life is grim and full of pain.. and people get wrecked like ships lost without lighthouses

all the rotten things in us.. humans are hell

and our willful chaos is self for-filling and desire driven

every time desire and suffering are mentioned its judgement so i guess i could stand to care less
but i don't think i can ever not care at all

i see what looks to me like evil.. in the form of desires like greed among many
i think evil is suffering ~ good is when no suffering is wanted

and im not just angry any more im shocked and sad to see whats become of everything..
when the only hope for our crazy modern world seems to be giving up all hope of people rejecting desire
so that i dont have to even think anymore because its so pointless.. not enough people are going to save the earth

or them selves

or there hearts

i shouldn't vent my emotions here.. ill go for a walk .. and learn to see that im just the same and im full of emptiness that is not 'need'

Its ok to want things. I think life is defined by want. Living beings are defined by want, as opposed to rocks, who stand still and want nothing because they're not alive.

That is why Buddhism never quite clicked for me.

As for people being silly and the world being full of suffering, that is kind of a glass half empty perspective. I believe people shouldn't let the "state of the world" get to them at all.

The world will always be huge, chaotic, confusing, and full of suffering. That is why its called "the world", and not your backyard or heaven. You can't change the world, it will always be what it is.

Even if humanity does great strides in reducing overall world misery and fixing the environment in the next few decades/centuries, your opinion and that of others who suffer for the world like you wouldn't change at all, and your happiness wouldn't improve at all.

I know because humanity has already done great strides: we live much better than our antecessors and are indeed living humanity's best age right now. And yet the lamentations over how horrible everything is haven't stopped.

Your problem isn't the world, its your perspective of it and how you let the state of the world affect your inner life. Even if you think the world is ailing and in need of help, that doesn't need to mean you live your life unhappy.

scams.

I wished everyone could have multple skills, capable of doing all life basics.

Then it will rise bars for everything, demand for higher standard in life.

He figured you knew

You better stop smoking that linoleum.

I don't think being a jerkass correlates much with being poor. Many poor don't steal, many rich do.