"Im not trying to be rude or arrogant" well i regard myself as all dark things despite my best efforts.. i have pride fear anger ect.. i try to combat those things.. but from time to time they may occur in me even unseen no matter how hard im trying not to be.. because im emotionally corruptible and even though my story began just like yours.. along the way as i grew.. i grew blind to what i am..
its ok to be hurt and to desire vengeance so long as the wave breaks and you recover your ability to forgive and forget
perhaps even when you let go of any hate you may still find others remain unreasonable.. some times all you can do is accept the world may never be ready for peace.. but if you follow the path of war you tend to find war
"but is that irony?"
im sorry but i cant be sure i correctly understand the context? i said something ironic because im bating you aswell? perhaps your right. maybe you could explain it so i can understand? even unintentional but still a part of me thats insensitive or moves unseen due to my pride.. im sorry if i harbour abrasive aspects. you deserve to feel cared about. but it was not a mindful act. i dont want to hurt people deliberately.
that being said i am ashamed at the way i have bullied some players when i called them noobs.. i realise that i have behaved badly many times.. upsetting people without caring how they feel.. sometimes even in ways that i felt when i was called a noob.. a strange kind of echo in it all.. something reflective about it all.. bouncing back and forth between people.. i just hope i can be a nicer person in time.
